It is hard at times to find something… anything… to say about the incessant chaos that is going on in our country right now. I can only see it from my perspective: a former Navy enlisted woman, who studies battles and strategy in her spare time. (I’ve done that since I did an amazing report on Alexander the Great in high school.) I’ve met, and am grateful for all those vets I have met on Twitter. You are part of my family, whether you like it or not.
So, I don’t understand this lack of desire to plan. Everyone seems to have put so much faith in the Mueller investigations and in the vote on Nov 6, that no one seems to have planned for the ‘what if.’
I like plans, they are reassuring. They can be adjusted depending on certain conditions; they are never written in stone. If this happens, do this. If that happens, go back to the other…
Why are so many folk putting all their eggs in one basket? That to me is a recipe for failure. And I don’t like failing.
So, here I am, one journey complete and another beginning. At the onset I’m …….sitting. Sitting with these thoughts, the fears, the smiles, the anxiety and just watching all those emotions flitter around like the leaves falling now. I’ve been in similar places, at different times, with the same churned up emotions but this is the first time I have sat with them, looked at them scurry around. Because now… yes it begins… they fall, and lay , if not still , then nearly so. This is when I can cry, scream, wail, pound on a defenseless pillow if I have to, until my tears turn to snuffling and then silence, not unlike those thoughts and emotions.
I learned that inner stillness isn’t always outer stillness. Its possible to be both. Silly old thing to learn but I kind of like it.
Along the fence line, can almost see the rancher just out of sight, checking the wire.
Million Vet March
Vets, their families, military brats, military members, marching on Washington DC to make sure our ‘leaders’ are aware of our displeasure with the antics of the government. I wish I could be there on this historic day. I think its time we all stood together in Solidarity and let our ‘leaders’ know the people will not take this anymore. We can do this.